3 am and I’m up again

I sit here up for 20 hrs, this morning I woke up at 3 AM, laying in bed, and I can’t fall back asleep, I want a cigarette.  So I drag myself up and go out and smoke, feel like I am in mild withdraw because I did not take my Suboxone the day before. [...]

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

So I bucked up the other day, I went to a shirk.  I forced myself with everything I had in me, like starting a 15 page report for school to get out of bed and go.  I was so scarred and nervous, I have never been to a shrink before. I didn’t know this guy [...]

I want to be.

I like to ruin photos of people.  They are looking their best think they have the perfect photo then they develop it and they see my ugly mug making a stretched out face with one squinty eye.  Yea I really have a good time doing that. I have had this feeling in my stomach like [...]