How pathetic has Journey gotten. They have this mid twenties asian dude singing for them. So it’s him on stage and the rest of the band is in their 60’s, and they are on Oprah. Life I guess is ok, Still on suboxone, was put on vyvance for ADHD, I have been seeing a shrink, [...]
Friend to Iraq and Me Off Smack
So, I am sad to say that I have a friend Ryan who will be going to Iraq in just a couple of weeks for his second tour. Its hard to look at another guy and tell them how much you really care about them without sounding gay. I really don’t care, but it is [...]
3 am and I’m up again
I sit here up for 20 hrs, this morning I woke up at 3 AM, laying in bed, and I can’t fall back asleep, I want a cigarette. So I drag myself up and go out and smoke, feel like I am in mild withdraw because I did not take my Suboxone the day before. [...]
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
So I bucked up the other day, I went to a shirk. I forced myself with everything I had in me, like starting a 15 page report for school to get out of bed and go. I was so scarred and nervous, I have never been to a shrink before. I didn’t know this guy [...]
I want to be.
I like to ruin photos of people. They are looking their best think they have the perfect photo then they develop it and they see my ugly mug making a stretched out face with one squinty eye. Yea I really have a good time doing that. I have had this feeling in my stomach like [...]
Sad?
I think I like to be sad and depressed, I like when people talk down at me sometimes, at work today this customer jumped my shit because the coffee was not ready when he went to get it, so like a 2 minute Wait would have killed him, but yea apparently, he about stroked out. [...]
just a moment
Thinking ten years down the line I can’t think of anything. It’s blank
There is thiss girl at work April, I see her come in everyday doped up on what I can guess, I remember those days, she does not want anyone to know, but I know all to well. If I could only help her, [...]
Does it ever get better?
Wow! what can I really say. These last few months have really sucked. A couple of months ago I had a good friend die. Jason was a really cool dude. Though he was often moody he had reason for it. I remember about 9 years ago I pretty much lived with this guy. We would smoke [...]
Cleo Can Suck on It
I don’t know why some small things really upset me. Its usually the little things, as opposed to the major things that get me upset. So I had a good day over all no stress. Doing my normal thing. I had an NA (Narcotics anonymous) meeting tonight. We all kinda took turns reading this flyer, [...]
Lapse in Judgment
Wow! I passed my drug test. Crazy, this is the first time I have ever in my life passed a drug test with out drinking some shit you get at the bong store, or some fake urine you buy with a little heating pad. I can actually say that I am proud of myself. This [...]
